My temper is my worst quality. I can be mean, spiteful, cut you to pieces with a look and never look back. It's something I've grappled with my whole life and have slowly (very slowly) made advances in keeping my temper in check. A majority of that has to do with the fact that I work with the public, thus rendering it nearly impossible to be in a visibly bad mood since my employment depends on whether or not I'm nice to people.
The worst part about my temper is that it comes in on little cat's feet, silently, and then it stays. I'll be in a perfectly fine mood, and then the smallest thing will set me off. For hours. Days, sometimes. Today was a combination of rain, rain-soaked pants and people's inability to remember how to drive in the Fred Meyer parking lot. And I feel powerless against it. I just want to give in and let it encompass me completely to be tucked in my corner under my raincloud making everyone else miserable with me.
But how do I get better? My best way to handle it now is to zone out for a bit, listen to some really depressing music or maybe even take nap. Is that the best way? Ideas? Ultimately my bad mood isn't going to alter the world, but doesn't deserve to be beat up because some guy in an Outback can't figure out the traffic pattern.
So how does a girl with a nasty temper move past it? Is there a magic reset button I get to press or do I need to push people away until I'm ready to come back out to play? There's a lot of Fuel on replay right now, but how can I get through the rainy days to come? What happens when the storm is so dark I can't see my way out?
